Two blogs in one day
Well, I'm going to bed.
I can't be awake any longer
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bye.
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:(:(:(:(:(
I want
so many things I can't have.
happiness.
I don't know what it feels like to be happy
I'm sick of cryingggggg, and hurtingggg, and dyinggggg.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Yeah
I just want to say that I feel like erasing everything
You know, I got a fortune cookie, and the paper said "After the rain comes the sun"
I think that means something.
But I don't feel like it means something.
I make sense to myself.
I hope others understand.
But I feel like nobody understands me.
Yanno, I got another. And it said. "Nothing is impossible."
Haha at that, because everything is impossible.
I sound like a retard. It's okay, I feel like one too.
I like to sleep, really. Like, a lot. Because when I sleep, I don't think. So I have no problems. So I try to sleep all day.
I want to erase all of my blogs.
I feel like everything has just exploded right in my face.
All hope is lost.
I cannot start a new, does that make sense?
It does to me.
I have those strong moments, where I feel confident.
I feel like going on, I feel like holding on. I feel like I have someone. Or like I don't need someone. Or anyone.
But those are just moments. they mean nothing.
I don't know what happiness feels like anymore. I really don't know what it feels like to be happy.
I don't know who I am, I don't think. But really, what does it feel like when you do know who you are? How does it feel to be confident?
And strong?
I'm not. I thought I was. I was wrong.
You know what? I love my dad. Really, he makes me laugh. If I have a hero, it's him. It is him. He is. My hero.
I want to forget everything, UGHLKJFHGLKDJG I'M STRUGGLING. I'M GIVING UP. I'M HURTING. I'M SUFFERING. I'M MISERABLE. I don't know what to do. I don't want to do anything. I want to know how if feels to be happy. I want to laugh so hard, and not stop. I want to smile, so big, and not be able to keep a straight face. I want to not be able to cry, no matter how hard I try.
Nothing is real to me. I want to feel important. I want to feel worth something. I want to feel like I matter.
KNOW that this is not a breakdown. this is my every day. this is how I feel. this is normal. for me.
What can I say? I feel. every emotion.
Nothing can help. nothing. I feel like, things won't change.
I'm not giving up, I HAVE given up.
I don't care anymore.
I'm too used to this feeling. all of these feelings. it's 2 in the morning. bye.
You know, I got a fortune cookie, and the paper said "After the rain comes the sun"
I think that means something.
But I don't feel like it means something.
I make sense to myself.
I hope others understand.
But I feel like nobody understands me.
Yanno, I got another. And it said. "Nothing is impossible."
Haha at that, because everything is impossible.
I sound like a retard. It's okay, I feel like one too.
I like to sleep, really. Like, a lot. Because when I sleep, I don't think. So I have no problems. So I try to sleep all day.
I want to erase all of my blogs.
I feel like everything has just exploded right in my face.
All hope is lost.
I cannot start a new, does that make sense?
It does to me.
I have those strong moments, where I feel confident.
I feel like going on, I feel like holding on. I feel like I have someone. Or like I don't need someone. Or anyone.
But those are just moments. they mean nothing.
I don't know what happiness feels like anymore. I really don't know what it feels like to be happy.
I don't know who I am, I don't think. But really, what does it feel like when you do know who you are? How does it feel to be confident?
And strong?
I'm not. I thought I was. I was wrong.
You know what? I love my dad. Really, he makes me laugh. If I have a hero, it's him. It is him. He is. My hero.
I want to forget everything, UGHLKJFHGLKDJG I'M STRUGGLING. I'M GIVING UP. I'M HURTING. I'M SUFFERING. I'M MISERABLE. I don't know what to do. I don't want to do anything. I want to know how if feels to be happy. I want to laugh so hard, and not stop. I want to smile, so big, and not be able to keep a straight face. I want to not be able to cry, no matter how hard I try.
Nothing is real to me. I want to feel important. I want to feel worth something. I want to feel like I matter.
KNOW that this is not a breakdown. this is my every day. this is how I feel. this is normal. for me.
What can I say? I feel. every emotion.
Nothing can help. nothing. I feel like, things won't change.
I'm not giving up, I HAVE given up.
I don't care anymore.
I'm too used to this feeling. all of these feelings. it's 2 in the morning. bye.
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