I just want to say that I feel like erasing everything
You know, I got a fortune cookie, and the paper said "After the rain comes the sun"
I think that means something.
But I don't feel like it means something.
I make sense to myself.
I hope others understand.
But I feel like nobody understands me.
Yanno, I got another. And it said. "Nothing is impossible."
Haha at that, because everything is impossible.
I sound like a retard. It's okay, I feel like one too.
I like to sleep, really. Like, a lot. Because when I sleep, I don't think. So I have no problems. So I try to sleep all day.
I want to erase all of my blogs.
I feel like everything has just exploded right in my face.
All hope is lost.
I cannot start a new, does that make sense?
It does to me.
I have those strong moments, where I feel confident.
I feel like going on, I feel like holding on. I feel like I have someone. Or like I don't need someone. Or anyone.
But those are just moments. they mean nothing.
I don't know what happiness feels like anymore. I really don't know what it feels like to be happy.
I don't know who I am, I don't think. But really, what does it feel like when you do know who you are? How does it feel to be confident?
And strong?
I'm not. I thought I was. I was wrong.
You know what? I love my dad. Really, he makes me laugh. If I have a hero, it's him. It is him. He is. My hero.
I want to forget everything, UGHLKJFHGLKDJG I'M STRUGGLING. I'M GIVING UP. I'M HURTING. I'M SUFFERING. I'M MISERABLE. I don't know what to do. I don't want to do anything. I want to know how if feels to be happy. I want to laugh so hard, and not stop. I want to smile, so big, and not be able to keep a straight face. I want to not be able to cry, no matter how hard I try.
Nothing is real to me. I want to feel important. I want to feel worth something. I want to feel like I matter.
KNOW that this is not a breakdown. this is my every day. this is how I feel. this is normal. for me.
What can I say? I feel. every emotion.
Nothing can help. nothing. I feel like, things won't change.
I'm not giving up, I HAVE given up.
I don't care anymore.
I'm too used to this feeling. all of these feelings. it's 2 in the morning. bye.
Everything is Nothing
You can brave decisions Before you crumble up inside Spend your time asking everyone else's permission Then run away and hide.Oh you can hold her eggs. But your basket has a hole
4 comments:
Kinah,
wow, I don't really know what to say...
First, you have an incredible gift for writing. The way you write is absolutely captivating.
Second, you have a purpose here. There is a reason that Shekinah Singleton is in Roseburg Oregon.
You are here to make a difference. To be you. Who God created you to be. Strong. Strong, for Him and for others. You have already made a difference in my life just by being you. I am amazed at how strong you really are.
As for the fortune cookies, I don't believe that it was coincidence taht you got those ones. I believe that there is so much sun coming for you after all this rain. More sun than you know what to do with. And the things you know to be impossible will no longer seem so far out of reach.
...you were not wrong...you are strong.
For those times when you need someone,you're miserable, and you don't kow what to do, you have me. I will always be there for you. Through thick and thin.
I love you.
Stay strong.
Keep going.
Don't give up anymore.
You are amazing.
I love you.
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Tourin
What she said. There IS sun, Kinah, there is. It's coming, keep looking for it, don't lose hope. I saw you smile today, there was lots of light there.
I love you. You are MY hero.
I can't believe I haven't been reading this. You rule. you're coming out of this. ILY. Keep writing, weirdo.
I very much enjoyed this. Reminds me of a boy I once knew. He brings me hope that those who suffer eventually find their own salvation. The boy I knew now helps others. For we are the broken he says. We must work together to keep each other from crumbling.
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