Mixed Emotions..

My head is sort of spinning. I don't exactly know how I feel right now. A mix really. Heart broken, but over what? Sympathetic, who am I sorry for? Myself? Probably. Upset. I know there's reasons.. quite a few. And deep down, there's a smile hidden somewhere. When will it show up?

I'm not liking that most of these days I'm sad.

I gave my dad a massage earlier, while he was typing up a new blog.
I like his writing a lot.
He's very smart, and a good writer.

I have hiccups? I don't know the proper spelling for that.

Haha they are gone now.

I hate feeling so weak. having low self esteem.
Something sometimes gets me down.
I hate being this low.

feeling.

I know I'm strong.
I need someone to help me remember that.

I have a hard time.

Running..
Yeah, so I started running.
And I am not doing good.
I haven't been doing it for a while now.
Lame?
yeah I know.

Repeat, good button.
'Vienna' -Billy Joel.
Good song.


I don't know what to write now, because I'm feeling so hurt.
I don't know what about though.

I just feel really in need of a nice long good talk, and a huge hug.
I know that seems really simple, and stupid.

But it's what I need.
Too bad I can't have it.
bye.